Narcissistic abuse: I’ve learnt my lesson.

It has been nearly 3 years since my last relationship and I feel more confident about my body and my qualities as a person than I ever did in that relationship.

I cannot believe I stayed so long in a relationship with somebody who I did everything for, to make them happy but who made me feel like I was never good enough. I completely lost myself in that relationship.

It was a very hard lesson that I’ve had to learn but its a lesson the universe had planned for me and it will never happen again.

I have now grown from this experience and I’ve got to now have faith that the universe has good things coming my way.


A good morning surprise on a very dismal morning.

Today here in North Wales it has suddenly got so much colder, it has been raining on and off all day and it looks miserable.

This morning I went up to my garden to see one of my sunflowers to cheer myself up and I found…

A cute bee sleeping on one of my sunflowers! 🌻🐝😍
Look how cute and peaceful he looks!

It definitely put a smile on my face! 😍😍

Faye xxx

Body confidence; I’ve come a long way.

I have come such a long way. ❣

Through years of self-hate, negative talk,  trauma, counciling, beating myself up,  surrounding myself with narcissists and being in a one sided relationship with a narcissist who made me feel ugly and unwanted,  I am finally on the road to recovery and on the road to self-love, body confidence and being comfortable in my own skin.  I love every curve, lump, scar and bump.

I am growing more and more each day, I follow body positive accounts and people who are inspirational to me, I’ve broken down the societal pressures of beauty, I’ve stopped focusing on weight and unrealistic beauty standards and I am finally happy in my own skin WITH all my flaws!!

My body is not only beautiful but incredibly strong for all that it is going through, I’m still here, still standing. My scars, my cellulite, my rolls, my dimples, my body is a work of art showing my incredible journey.


Nuclear power plant in North Wales being scrapped!

My reaction when I saw this headline: Good!!

Nuclear energy has no place in a safe, clean, sustainable future. Nuclear energy is both expensive and dangerous, and just because nuclear pollution is invisible doesn’t mean it’s clean. … New nuclear plants are more expensive and take longer to build than renewable energy sources like wind or solar.

If you want to read more information as to why nuclear energy isn’t the answer to our energy problems, visit these websites. ⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️


Order your free wildflower seeds from Rowse Honey!

Rowse honey have a brilliant new campaign running called “feed the bees”.

If you visit their website you can order some free wildflower seed bombs to help feed the bees for spring 2021.

I already have mine! 🌱⚘

Order yours now! Visit the website below!! ⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️

I found out about this campaign from someone I follow on my instagram:

Michael Perry- he is an expert gardener, plant enthusiast and excellent blogger (check out his Instagram and his website for great gardening tips and content!)

So what are you waiting for?







Short poem about CPTSD & dreaming: “Let me sleep”.

Last night I had a bad dream again,

I feel like this will never end,

I know it wasn’t reality but it feels so deep and personal to me,

What is my brain trying to tell me?

Is there some truth in these dreams or is it all my CPTSD?

It feels like a curse to be spiritual and have a busy brain because sometimes I just want the silence, I want the rest,

I want to rest my head and not dream away,

I want to feel refreshed when I get out of bed…

But it is my curse I have to bare,

Like many other things in my life, I have to live with it, cope with it, but at least I can share.

Share my truth, share my struggle, share my reality because maybe somewhere out there someone is going through the same experiences as me.





Classical compositions that evoke the countryside. 🌄🌅

The best music has the power to flick the switch that transports us to a different time or place. It also has the ability to either amplify our feelings or to help us escape them.

Songs are where we go to lose ourselves or to find something that is sometimes otherwise lacking- as is the natural world.

When you’re yearning for the outdoors give these great classical compositions a listen to transport you.

  • The last ascending by Vaughan Williams: a hugely popular piece for solo violin and orchestra, this song portrays the artist’s love for the countryside. The solo violin representing the larks flight into the sky- it is one of the best loved pieces of music ever written.

  • Enigma Variations by Elgar: this song is made up of a theme and 14 variations, each of which is dedicated to one of the composers friends and family.

  • On hearing the first cuckoo in spring by Delius: Delius wrote this ode to the countryside in 1914 but while Vaughan Willaims used the violin to capture the song of the lark, Delius recreates the cuckoo’s iconic call using mainly woodwind instruments- the oboe and clarinet in particular.

  • Eclogue by Finzi: Finzi was born in London in 1901 but he’s most famous for his music celebrating the British landscape.

  • Variation XI (Allegro Di Molto) by Edward Elgar: so strong the composers association with Worcestershire’s Malvern Hills that it’s possible to explore the Elgar Route, where you can soak up the scenery that inspired so much of his work

  • The Exe Estuary by Show of Hands: it’s not just classical pieces that transport us to our favourite places; folk music can be just as expressive. This track is taken from Show of Hands 2003 instrumental album ‘The Path’, recorded to mark the silver jubilee of the South-West coastal path. It also demonstrates Steve Knightley and Phil Beer’s deep understanding of their home patch.

  • Rainbow River by Vashi Bunyan: this song comes from the English songwriters revered 1970 album ‘just another diamond day’ which was inspired by her travels through Scotland on horse and carriage. There’s a simplicity to both the music and lyrics of rainbow River which fits into how many other people view the country.

  • Little bird by Goldfrapp: Alison Goldfrappe and Will Gregory, the duo behind the glam pop band tended to keep their pastoral influences concealed beneath layers of shimmering electronics however, in 2008 this changed. Their album ‘Seventh Tree’ a simpler folk-inflected affair revealed their love of the countryside.

  • Kingfisher by Bert Jansch: Bert Jansch, formerly of the group Pentangle, recorded an instrumental folk album called ‘Avocet’ in February 1978. Avocet was inspired by the traditional song “The Cuckoo”. All tracks on the album are named after a sea bird or wading bird.

  • Water by Sally Beamish (Piano Concerts no.1): Beamish wrote most of this concerto in 2016 while staying in the Caignorms National Park. Water is the first of 4 parts.

  • The sea: I. Seascape by Frank Bridge: so stirring it inspired a 10 year old Benjamin Britten, this 4 movement piece was completed in Frank Bridge’s Eastbourne home in 1911. At the premiere, Bridge said this movement ‘Paints the sea on a summer morning’.

Enjoy listening to these beautiful pieces.

Thank you to Countryfile magazine for the inspiration and a lot of the content to write this article.