❇This morning whilst cleansing my face and putting my hair up in the normal ponytail for work I was staring at my windowsill full of plants which normally fills me with joy, happiness and peace but instead I was beating myself up in my head saying that I don’t have the ability to keep plants properly just because 2 of them aren’t doing too well at the moment through no fault of my own- my orchid has lost its flowers and I’m waiting for it to flower again and my begonia I’ve had to cut back (so it will invest its time in producing new leaves) due it not doing so well.
This is how my brain works, it comes on like a flash without any notice at all.
Its not always against me but sometimes it is.
I had to spend a considerable amount of time putting these negative thoughts down and i told myself that I am not bad at keeping plants as I have others that are growing so well, I am still learning and I won’t get it perfect first time, but eventually I’ll get better and my room still looks so beautiful. ♥️♥️