I have struggled with my mental health since I was 15 years old and my mental health issues were caused by childhood trauma.
Trauma is the most common reason for mental health issues being experienced and diagnosed during later life.
Watching Stacey Dooley in mental health wards hit home with me not because I have been in one (although I was close in one point of my life) but because of what she discovered and the point that was made.
Mental health is getting more common especially in younger people and most of the severe mental health issues are due to trauma and instead of dealing with the trauma at a young age it is often ignored and during later life it recurs causing serious repercussions.
Stacey and other mental health professionals believe that if trauma was treated at a younger age that a lot of people wouldn’t not suffer with as serious mental health issues as they get older or difficulties with dealing their mental health and I agreed with this because I believe personally that if my trauma was dealt with at a younger age straight after it happened, then maybe I wouldn’t have suffered as much as I have during later life with both my physical health and my mental health.
My trauma was due to childhood trauma, so growing up I blocked out a lot of the bad memories; upon getting older I felt like my mind was invaded and I started remembering all these bad memories that I had compressed deep down within my subconscious and this was a very stressful and confusing time for me.
I went to numerous conciling sessions including family conciling but it didn’t work, only in college was I offered CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) sessions from a college councillor who was practicing CBT and I found it helped. When I went to university I was offered more CBT which helped me with the ability to manage my stress levels and keep on track with my moods and adapt healthy habits into my daily life to help with my mental health…
It has taken me until age 27 to be offered psychotherapy which is especially for trauma patients and those suffering PTSD. After spending my entire adolescence seeking help with my mental health I was quite understandably upset that this was not offered to me a lot earlier! Maybe if this was offered to me earlier for example after being diagnosed with CPTSD I might have not struggled as much!
I agree with the staff on the mental health ward in this programme and believe that the NHS need to seriously rethink the mental health sector especially when it comes to trauma. More therapies need to be offered, more alternative therapies such as mindfulness courses and community projects set up to support mental health survivors which have been proved to be a life support for those who suffer mental health difficulties or even those in crisis!
I really hope I see the mental health sector improving in the near future.
Pets come with some powerful mental health benefits.
Many studies have shown that pets (especially dogs) can help with numerous issues ranging from depression, PTSD to addictions and loneliness.
Dogs can contribute to your happiness. Studies show that dogs reduce stress, anxiety and depression, ease loneliness, encourage exercise and improve your all-around health. For example, people with dogs have lower blood pressure and are less likely to develop heart disease—just playing with dogs has been shown to elevate oxytocin and dopamine, creating positive feelings and bonding for both the person and their pet.
For someone living with depression, there is so much to gain from having a dog.
For me my dogs give me a reason to get out of bed, they are there to keep me company on the bad days when I’m stuck in bed in pain, they cheer me up, they give me structure and purpose and something to look after and they help me feel calm and grounded when they are next to me- when I have one of my dogs in bed with me I feel so calm and relaxed, my brain switches off and I sleep so much better.
I love my girls! 🐶🐶🐕🐕
Some quick facts about Matisse:
☆Henri Matisse didn’t set out to become an artist. As a young man in Paris he studied law, passing his bar exam with distinction and even taking a job as a law clerk.
☆A bout of ill health changed the course of Matisse’s life and career forever. Suffering an acute attack of appendicitis at the age of twenty, he was left on temporary bed rest. During his recovery, Matisse’s mother, Anna Heloise, brought him an assortment of art supplies to help him pass the time, and he fell in love with painting.
☆He was born on New Year’s Eve in 1869 in Le Cateau-Cambrésis in northern France to middle-class grain merchants.
☆Matisse studied with the French academic painter William-Adolphe Bouguereau in 1891 at the Académie Julian.
☆ In 1892, Matisse left the academy after an unsuccessful year and struck up what would become a long and fruitful apprenticeship with the Symbolist painter Gustave Moreau, who nurtured the artist’s more experimental inclinations.
☆ Among his greatest patrons were three American women – the salon-world grande dame Gertrude Stein and sisters Claribel and Etta Cone. The Cone sisters, whom Matisse called “my two Baltimore ladies,” together assembled one of the preeminent collections of his work in the world.
☆ Matisse was one key leaders of Fauvism, the 20th century’s first avant-garde art movement. Active from roughly 1905 to 1910, Fauvism radically reinterpreted color as an expressive and structural element, divorced from literal description. “When I put down a green, it doesn‘t mean grass; and when I put down a blue, it doesn’t mean the sky,” Matisse declared.
☆His early paintings were surprisingly conservative, but Matisse experienced an artistic about-face when his friend the Australian painter John Peter Russell introduced him to the work of Vincent van Gogh in 1897.
☆For the public and some critics, especially in the US, Matisse’s radical use of color was outrageous, even offensive. Reactions could be passionate – in 1913, when Blue Nude (1907–08) traveled to Chicago, students at the Art Institute burned an effigy of the work.
☆While living in Vence, France, at the Villa Le Rêve in the 1940s, Matisse had three cats Minouche, Coussi and La Puce whom he fed pieces of brioche every morning.
☆ Besides his cats, Matisse adored doves, which he purchased from vendors along the Seine. The dove shape appears in many of his cut-outs and it was one of his birds on which Picasso modeled his Dove of Peace (1949). In his last days, Matisse gifted his precious birds to the Spanish artist.
☆ In the last years of his life Matisse was confined to a wheelchair. As painting became increasingly difficult physically, the artist turned to his cut-out technique. He made shapes of paper with a scissor, which he then arranged using a long stick in a technique he called “painting with scissors.”
Matisse’s most famous work:
Here are the 10 most famous art pieces by Henri Matisse.
Woman in a purple coat (1937).
The Open window (1905).
Goldfish and Pallete (1914).
Luxury, calm and pleasure (1904).
Woman with a hat (1905).
Bathers by the river (1917).
Blue nude [Souvenir of Biska]- (1907).
The Red Studio (1911).
The joy of life (1906).
Personally my favourites are: joy of life, luxury calm and pleasure, the open window, but I also love the portraits of women he did in the cutting method.
Which of these is your favourite? Do you like Henri Matisse? Comment below.
I hope you enjoyed this short post.
Until next time,
Yesterday I visited the Lady Lever art gallery (there was also a Matisse exhibition on which I was very happy about).
Information about the Lady Lever Art Gallery.
Picture from the lady lever website.
The Lady Lever Art Gallery is regarded as one of the finest art galleries in Europe. It’s located in model village, Port Sunlight in Wirral, a place rich in architectural charm.
The gallery was founded by William Hesketh Lever (1851-1925) and is dedicated to his wife Elizabeth, Lady Lever. Lever wanted to share his collections with the public and the works on display at the gallery have been personally selected.
Inside the gallery, visitors will find the best of Lever’s personal art collection and the finest collection of Wedgwood jasperware anywhere in the world. The Pre-Raphaelite painting collection is internationally renowned and features works by Millais, Rossetti, Burne-Jones and Holman Hunt.
Here are the pictures I took of the exhibits:
Check out the next post for the Matisse exhibition.
I hope you enjoyed my photos.
I am trying to be strong if not for myself but more so for others around me, but I am tired!
I am tired of not knowing the full extent of what is going on in my own body,
I am no doctor or medical professional but I am not stupid, don’t I deserve to know about my body- the body I live, eat, sleep, love and breathe in.
I am trying to be strong but I am tired,
Tired of being in pain,
Tired of being ignored,
Tired of being dismissed as either difficult or overreacting- this is my body and I know something is wrong.
This is NOT NORMAL, I want to shout from the rooftops…
MY VAGINA HURTS (ALL THE TIME)!!!
Why do I feel if this was a man’s issue it would be solved already instead of years of being dismissed and ignored.
My uterus hurts, my vagina hurts, my back hurts, and most of all my heart hurts.
It is already depressing and infuriating the way I am treated simply being a woman but now this condition has added to the judgement, and social pressure added onto me of simply being a woman.
Why am I defined by my ability to reproduce, to have or want children? And especially at the age I am… why has the pressure increased…is there a timeline I don’t know about?
Why should my treatment and most importantly my getting accurate treatment to improve my health to give me a good quality of life depend on my decision to have children???
What if I decide I don’t want children and you know what- I shouldn’t have to be pressured.
Pressured by friends, family, women the same age as me, doctors,
I will not define myself by societal pressures and have a child just because I’ve reached a certain age…
I shouldn’t have to decide right now.
All I want to decide is how to make my life better and what help I need because I cannot do this on my own, although I’m trying and failing.
Endo is judgement,
Endo is pressure,
Endo is painful,
Endo is heart breaking,
But still I continue to fight and defy.
My amazing mum adopted an elephant for me for my Christmas present so I receive letter updates from the WWF on the elephants and the rest of their conservation work.
My elephant! 🐘🐘🐘
Namunyak is the leader of her herd! (Yes!💗😍👊)
She has been tracked by the WWF since November 2015 and has given them lots of vital and interesting information about her herds movements and behaviour.
Numunyak makes all the decisions (like any leader would), including where to feed, bathe and rest. Thanks to signals from her collar, the WWF now know that she and her herd spend most of their time in the hilly forests around Olarro and Siana conservancies and that they are often joined by other herds.
Groups of around 100 elephants might mingle together for a while in a big social gathering- a kind of jumbo networking event!
In the Maasai Mara, conservancy land owners pool their lands together and agree measures that allow for the free movement of wildlife, including the removal of fences- the majority of Africa’s reserves are fenced.
The conservancy often run as ecotourism ventures (Olarro you can actually find on facebook), in which local landowners recieve a monthly land lease payment and tourists can see elephants and other incredible animals in their natural habitat. Even though they’re not state protected, conservancy lands can be thriving wildlife havens, as Namunyak’s movements seem to show.
She and her clan tend to stick to the same core area between Olarro and Siana, with occasional trips to other neighbouring conservancies. WWF have also discovered that Namunyak occasionally raids crop fields owned by small-scale farmers near the conservancies- not only does she lead her own herd to the raids, they sometimes join with another herd to form a bigger group, making it harder for the farmers to deter them!
– She’s so clever and mischievous I love her!! 😍😍
Elephants are scared of bees and hate the smell of chilli so both of these measures are used to deter the elephants from crop yielding. Fences surrounding crops that are saturated with chili powder, generally mixed with waste engine oil, can be a strong deterrent to marauding elephants, particularly when constructed and managed strategically.
If farmers choose to keep bees they can also make a profit selling the honey from the beekeeping which acts as an extra income.
WWF are also supporting ranger teams locally to these areas who can quickly respond to calls from farmers to avoid a potential conflict between people and elephants.
The next important project is assessing the Mara ecosystem elephant population census which is due to take place this year- this is an airborne assessment.
The Mara is part of the Mara-Serengeti, which stretches 25,000 sq km across Kenya and Tanzania. There are no fences between the Mara and the Serengeti and the elephants often move from one place to the other- so they are seen as a single Mara-Serengeti population.
Thanks to conservation efforts this population has been stable and increasing since 1984 and the WWF are hoping that the census will show that this is still the case.
Cerrado: info and how the WWF are trying to help.
Cerrado acts as a water catchment and alone provides Brazil with 3 major aquifers and 6 of 8 of the largest watersheds in Brazil and is vital for water conservation in Brazil.
It acts as a bridge between the Amazon, Pantanal, the Atlantic Forest and Caatinga.
The Cerrado is home to 30% of Brazil’s biodiversity including it’s own big five- jaguar’s, maned wolves, giant ant eaters, giant armadillos and tapirs yet right now, an area the size of Greater London is being cleared every 2 months to grow the world’s crops.
If land conversion continues at the current rate, the Cerrado could be gone in the next decade!
You might not realise it but food production is now the leading cause of deforestation and is responsible for almost 60% of global biodiversity loss.
In Latin America one of the biggest problems linked to a global increase in meat and dairy consumption is clearance of natural habitats for cattle pasture in areas such as the Amazon.
The Cerrado is also hugely important for soya bean production!
Soy is grown in vast amounts, primarily to feed the pigs and chickens we eat. The UK alone consumes more than 3.3 million tonnes of soy each year and 75% is used for animal feed.
Soy can be grown sustainably, but 77% of UK soy imports currently come from Brazil, Argentina and Paraguay- countries where there is a high risk of deforestation.
How are WWF trying to help?
The way the WWF is trying to help is by…
☆Introducing practical measures to change the way soy is farmed.
Sustainable soy farming includes creating wildlife corridors between large-scale agricultural areas and leaving land unfarmed at the edges of rivers to provide space for wildlife. WWF are helping local cooperative in the Cerrado to make a living from other sustainability harvested products such as cashews, baru nuts and paqui fruit. They are also pushing the UK government to ban the sale of any food that causes deforestation and are asking businesses to help.
In 2017, an alliance of WWF and more than 60 NGO’s in Brazil released a Cerrado Manifesto calling for investors and companies to take action.
Numerous manufacturers and over 140 companies including Aldi, Lidl, M&S, Morrisons, Sainsburys, Tesco and Waitrose have signed a statement of support.
Visit the WWF website to read more and support a vital cause.wwf.org.uk/save-cerrado
Until next time,
Since the weather has been so bad near me (including storm Dennis and Ciara) I have been getting frustrated because I haven’t been able to get into my garden as gardening is my therapy and helps me to relax and I love putting flowers out there to help the wildlife especially the pollinators.
I have been thinking about putting house plants in my bedroom for a while now, I have some spotted around the house that I have given my mum over the years however, due to the bad weather I decided to go for it make a decision I’m starting my collection.
I started with a peace lily because I had a peace lily in my old house and I love them very much.
I was given a beautiful cactus that flowers if I take care of it from my nana and the plant terranium from my brother for my birthday and the rest I’ve picked up cheaply from my local supermarket where my mum works.
My collection is coming along well.
My windowsill looks amazing but of course I want more!!
I have a house plant wishlist!
My bedroom goals are:
I think I definitely need to make more room though first! 😂😂🙈🙈